How I ‘Killed’ Myself For A Better Life
Life sometimes silently poisons us in different ways which we never see coming and it ruins our entire future. Something happened like this with me too.
Like Everyone Else
The feeling when you pass out of high school and starting your college, you feel grown-up. I was also feeling the same. The first day of anything is always filled with excitement, curiosity and mainly making new friends. I also got some for life and some for turning my life to a different direction.
Passed 2 years having fun bunking classes, skipping a full day to roam around the city, cheating in exams ( theory has never been of my kind ), and whatnot. But some serious storm was about to happen.
The Serious Storm
I was good at programming or say mugging the code. This was the silent poison and I thought I knew how to program. I went for exploring more ways to code and there I met my father’s friend who ran a private I.T. company.
I asked him to make me learn more programming and so he took a test. He gave me a problem to solve which I already knew. And I solved it within 5 minutes. Then he altered the values. But this time, due to mugging, I failed to get the solution.
Then he said, “You have mugged it.”. And there I realised and it hit me hard, that I knew nothing about building logics and writing any code by myself. And this was the time to give up some luxury.
It’s Time To Give Up
I was 18 years old when this thing finally caught me. I was into fun and desires like what a normal teenager has. But, this feeling was always around to achieve something in your field of study, because no one will help you when you are 20. So, it was the time when I gave up my teenagehood and started assuming like I am already 20.
And this man helped me learning things what one programmer needs to have. I can never be enough thankful for it as it changed my future.
Things Have Changed
I started giving up people who I used to roam around the college. Some thought I have gone crazy into coding, but it was just something which they never saw coming.
I remember once I told someone that “I am here to study, not to get trapped into emotional chaos.”
Emotional Chaos? To be continued…
